Making Spotify Playlists Quiets My Existential Dread
“Head empty, no thoughts” is a motto my pals and I’ve internalized currently, with all of the loopy present occasions and our adolescent worries it’s typically finest for us to maintain our ideas to a minimal today. Letting my playlists hum within the background whereas I full my day-to-day actions prevents me from producing ideas. I do that deliberately as considering an excessive amount of sometimes doesn’t yield constructive outcomes in my life.
As I write this, I’ve just created my thirty fourth Spotify playlist within the span of six months. It looks like I’ve a playlist for each temper, artist, or style possible, however as the times go on they preserve getting an increasing number of particular. The music I take heed to nearly straight correlates with my temper; once I’m unhappy I take heed to my “sad” playlists stuffed with Joji and Frank Ocean. As unhappy as they might be, these songs are comforting, quieting my woeful ideas. Throughout happier instances, I take heed to extra upbeat music to replicate my temper, however now as a substitute of my temper dictating my music, my music typically controls my temper.
I’ve repeated this course of so many instances that even once I’m unhappy once I take heed to sure upbeat songs I robotically am put in a greater temper. Tame Impala’s “The Less I Know The Better” is a staple in my happier playlists. My life was considerably much less miserable when Currents got here out, there was no Pandemic, I used to be at school issues had been good. At any time when I take heed to the music my mind associates it with the great previous days. Each time I used to be glad and having a great day I might play the songs, till my mind related the music with pleasure and good days. Now each time I’m feeling unhappy and gloomy, blasting “The Less I Know The Better” with the bass turned all the way in which up immediately snaps me out of it, permitting me to go “head empty mode.”
I found I might do the identical factor on a a lot bigger scale with my playlists. One music can solely alter my temper for about three perhaps 4 minutes, however playlists will be listened to for hours. I engineer them to regulate my emotions with each music. I strategy making playlists with a lot element and care that you’d suppose it was my job. After I create these playlists, I create them with an overarching theme and temper in thoughts, like an creator writing a ebook. All the songs within the playlist are fastidiously chosen to match that theme and are performed in a selected order to observe a storyline of some type. I’ve others which can be simply songs of a selected style that I simply let play for hours till I cease considering. Like a radio station with no interruptions.
My playlist titled “Study,” for instance has been meticulously designed for peak tutorial efficiency. The playlist is precisely ninety minutes lengthy, so I do know once I have to take a break from my learning. The songs within the playlist are comparable with smooth however entrancing instrumentals and lyrics that don’t imply a lot. Simply fairly noises that buzz in my ear to maintain me from getting distracted from my mental endeavors. It by no means ceases to amaze me simply how a lot the music I take heed to impacts my every day temper and productiveness. My “Study” playlist is only one of many fastidiously curated playlists that work to regulate my temper.
With the intention to write this, I really needed to flip my music off for a few hours and replicate. This was really very onerous to do as I sometimes spend a median of 9 hours on Spotify a day. It led me to ask many questions on myself and the healthiness of my relationship with music.
Earlier than the Pandemic, I might repeatedly exit of my approach to peruse the corners of Soundcloud to seek out new artists and songs to take heed to. I’ve not accomplished this in over a 12 months. Why? As a result of the songs I take heed to proper now are snug and predictable. I do know precisely what to anticipate with every music, and I understand how every music will make me really feel. As an alternative of discovering new music, I’ve spent my vitality creating combos of acquainted songs that present safety throughout unsure instances.
I spend the vast majority of my waking hours with my music quietly buzzing in my ears as I full my foolish little duties, and I’ve concluded that my relationship with music and my playlists are neither wholesome nor unhealthy. It’s merely one thing that retains me distracted however one way or the other centered in the meanwhile. My relationship with music will inevitably evolve as I mature, however as of proper now it supplies me with what I want by clearing my ideas and curating my feelings with each playlist.